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The longer I'm here, the worse it gets. It's not so bad for me, because I have a ton of patience and a wonderful ability to completely tune out my surroundings, but at this point it's taking a real, physical and mental toll on Justin. He's unhappy and exhausted all the time, and it's breaking my heart to watch because there is nothing I can do about it. :( x a million
I HATE CHILDREN AND I NEVER WANT THEM AND IF THERE WAS ANY DOUBT IN MY MIND BEFORE ABOUT THIS, THE DOUBT HAS BEEN COMPLETELY, UTTERLY AND PERMANENTLY ERASED.
In other news, I have the worst sunburn ever and my thighs and back hurt like a mofo. :(((((((((((((((
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Saturday, March 21st, 2009
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I always feel like a tard when I write shit here. I have no idea why. People do it all the time, right? They update on their lives, blah blah blah... I just never could get into the habit of writing things down. But I like to write things down. Sometimes. Like right now :P Point form time!
-- School blows this semester. One class has a horrible prof with tons of work about shit I don't care about. One class has a less horrible but incredibly archaic prof at 8:30 in the morning about shit that, again, I don't care about (and her tests are piles of crap. The number of graphs on a test that isn't in a math course should be less than 7). One class is boring, the prof is nice but redundant, and for some reason, even though I've got an excellent grasp on the material I can't get a high mark to save my life.
And one class is wonderful. But at 8:30 in the morning :P
I cannot WAIT until this semester is done, GOD.
-- I'm on Zoloft. It's official: I go tell the nice people at Student Disability Services that I have "major depressive disorder, recurrent" on Tuesday. Maybe they can help me not fail school *thumbs up*
-- Justin's wonderful. I honestly had no idea what love was until I met him. He just told me that he's thinking of going back to school for accounting, and he's trying to get a full-time job with his brother in the meantime... if he starts school next year then he won't be able to move when I move after next year is done and we'll be apart for 2 years. If he doesn't start school he'll work full-time and then he won't be able to go camping in the summer. I feel conflicted because I want him to do what's right for him, and go to school and work when he can... but then he promised me a wonderful week of camping and there's been a lot of build-up to that, and as for the moving... I just assumed that now that he's in my life he wouldn't leave. He told me that wherever I went, he'd come with me... I think I'm just really sad at the idea of being away from him, and it's manifesting as disappointment that he makes these promises and doesn't keep them even though he has good reasons. I don't want to be apart from him, heh. Fuck long-distance relationships... I did that. I've been there. Now that I've had the non-long-distance relationship going on, I don't know how well that'll go over.
On top of the fact that when things change, I don't handle it well. Moving is frightening in and of itself.
-- I'm tired. I thought I should throw that in there.
-- I'm also debating on whether or not I should go to the Loop. It's Cameron's birthday... and I want to see him. It's not a sexual thing... he's a really nice guy, I haven't seen him in probably a year, and it would be nice to catch up with him. It would be nice of me to go. It's just it would probably also be horribly awkward, especially if I tried to explain anything to Justin....
-- Work is okay. Nothing really changes there. I'm more confident that when we relocate I'll still have a job, and I think I'll be able to pick up a lot of shifts over the summer, hauling things from one location to the other. Fun times. Yay money!
-- You know what's fun?? Typing on my laptop. I think that's half the reason I'm writing all this now. I should get writing on something productive... like that letter I was going to write Justin... or school.... hahaha, I'm kidding, not school. I work at 3, for 3 whole hours, woot, and then I'll probably go home and take a nap.
-- I like naps.
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Saturday, September 6th, 2008
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Tuesday, April 15th, 2008
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After about two years of being single, and 8 solid months of having fun with people (and what fun it was!), I think I may be ready for an actual relationship.
Fuck.
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Thursday, April 10th, 2008
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OMG MY PAPER IS DUE AT 8:30 TOMORROW MORNING, HERE'S A MEME.
Age: 20
Where did you grow up: Good old Windsor, Ontario.
WHAT DO YOU CALL:
1. A body of water, smaller than a river, contained within relatively narrow banks? Stream?
2. What the thing you push around the grocery store is called? Cart. Shopping cart?
3. A metal container to carry a meal in? Lunchbox. ("That is not a car, that's a lunchbox!!")
4. The thing that you cook bacon and eggs in? A pan. A frying pan.
5. The piece of furniture that seats three people? Couch (lol, my dad does say chesterfield sometimes)
6. The device on the outside of the house that carries rain off the roof? Eavestrough... I don't think I spelled that right and I don't care at the moment
7. The covered area outside a house where people sit in the evening? Oh crap... the patio? the porch?? That could be a couple things...
8. Carbonated, sweetened, non-alcoholic beverages? Pop. Tee hee, people who say soda make me giggle :D
9. A flat, round breakfast food served with syrup? Pancakes
10. A long sandwich designed to be a whole meal in itself? Sub. Submarine? Lol, no, a sub.
11. The piece of clothing worn by men at the beach? Speedo? Ick. Less disgusting... bathing suits?
12. Shoes worn for sports? Running shoes
13. Putting a room in order? Cleaning. (Clean up, clean up, everybody, everywhere)
14. A flying insect that glows in the dark? Fireflies!
15. The little insect that curls up into a ball? Potato bugs!
16. The children's playground equipment where one kid sits on one side and goes up while the other sits on the other side and goes down? See saw, teeter totter... I think I would say see saw first though.
17. How do you eat your pizza? Well now, that all depends on the pizza... but if it isn't stuffed crust, then from the pointy middle end to the crust and then I don't eat the crust because it's gross :P
18. What's it called when private citizens put up signs and sell their used stuff? Either yard sales or garage sales. I guess depending on where they set up?
19. What's the evening meal? Dinner. I don't think I say supper. One of my coworkers says supper and it makes me giggle so I'm guessing I don't...
20. The thing under a house where the furnace and perhaps a rec room are? Basement
21. What do you call the thing that you can get water out of to drink in public places? Fountain. Water fountain? (As opposed to a Kool Aid fountain or a vodka fountain, both of which would be pretty sweet.)
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Wednesday, March 26th, 2008
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I feel odd because I'm posting AGAIN, in the same month... that never happens. Anyways, I was tagged by ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) dentelle_noir so I better do it. (Plus, I don't have crazy assignments breathing down my neck at the moment so I'm taking the time to breathe and do NOTHING.)
Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 random things, facts, goals, or habits about yourself. At the end, choose 5 people to be tagged, listing their names & why you chose them. Don't forget to leave them a comment (you're it!) and to read your blog for instructions. You can't tag a person who has tagged you. Since you can't re-tag me, let me know when you've posted your blog so I can read the answers!
Screw tagging people, if you want to do it, do it.
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Wednesday, March 19th, 2008
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Friday, February 8th, 2008
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Thursday, February 7th, 2008
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Reply to this post, and I will list three things I love about you. Maybe more than three.
Then repost to your own journal and spread the love.
This is what I do instead of writing my methods section. Worst section of a paper to write ever. So boring. So tedious. Wah wah wah. At least the introduction has some points of interest even if it does involve lots of time-consuming research.
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Saturday, December 15th, 2007
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Folks, this is strictly for jazzpizza, although you're welcome to read it if you like. I just don't feel like spamming her inbox with comments.
( To the answers! )
Happy Middle-Of-December :)
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Saturday, December 1st, 2007
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I love The Phantom of the Opera (and Gerard Butler) more than a person should.
That's right, I spammed your f-list for THAT.
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Thursday, November 1st, 2007
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This is probably going to be very long.
That’s the end of the San Francisco story. I’m sure I forgot things but that’s what the pictures are for. I may edit this if I forgot something crucial. In the meantime, I now have to catch up on the life I left behind.
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Monday, August 27th, 2007
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I know I've done this before, but whatever. I also know that halo_seventeen didn't tag anyone, but since when have I given a real damn about tagging?
Pick your birth month.
- Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you.
- Bold the five-ten that best apply to you.
- Copy to your own journal, with all twelve months under a lj-cut.
MAY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.
EDIT: Hey, I was tagged by heeroisnottoast, when the hell did this happen? I clearly missed this entry oO.
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Friday, August 17th, 2007
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Tagged by halo_seventeen.
Rules: Post the explanation of where your username(s) came from. Then tag TEN users whose explanations you'd like to hear. If you are tagged, then post the explanation on your page.
( Why birdeatinspider? )
I tag everyone. Does it really matter?
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| Mood: |  good. |
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I feel it is my duty to do a bit of pimping, even though the only people who read this damn thing won't care because the band members aren't Japanese.
Maybe I should say they are, and then the pimping will work better.
Lost Subject
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Thursday, August 2nd, 2007
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| Time: | 11:22 pm. |
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Tagged by dentelle_noir, fool that she is:
The 8 Random Facts Meme
* Each player starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
* People who are tagged need to write their own blog about their eight things and post these rules.
* At the end of your blog, you need to choose (8) people to get tagged and list their names.
I don't know eight people to tag, so I tag everyone. Screw you.
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Tuesday, January 23rd, 2007
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Mendel stomped me in the face today.
At work, Jen points out that I have the recessive allele (attached). I look at her like she's nuts and say "No, I don't." So, argument (a nice one) ensues and we look at everyone's earlobes in the pharmacy, all the while I'm insisting that no, I don't have attached earlobes. Everyone's against me, so I check a mirror. HELLO! I do, in fact, have attached earlobes and have been an idiot for the past 19 and a half 6 years.
The reason I thought mine were unattached is because I compared myself to the text (which shows a pic of an ear that pretty much has no earlobe, whereas I have a more visible lobe), and never looked at an actual, unattached lobe.
So. I'm a loser. The whole store made fun of me all night. It was really funny, honestly. That whole entry was really pointless, being all about ears and stuff. Here's more relevant stuff.
Mom's doing okay. She got yelled at to move more. She's moving more.
Supervisor is okay. Only screwed up once, and it was because the person had an account number 2727. I won't make that mistake again.
Still kind of sick. Getting over it slowly.
Facebook sucks.
Yeah, that's it.
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Sunday, January 21st, 2007
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Me: What should I do my website on? I'm in Intro to the Internet, and we have to make one.
Her: Oh yeah, I did that. I made mine on health remedies.
Me: You took that class?
Her: Yeah.
Me: With Thistle?
Her: Yep.
Me: Well, what did you get??
Her: A+.
Me: ...get the hell out.
EDIT: We tied. :D
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Thursday, December 7th, 2006
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cranky.
pensive.
awake.
okay.
sick.